happiness? i want it... but i doubt i can find it... nt rite nw...

I dun feel well at all...
Not physically but mentally ,
I am just and empty shell right now.
No life.
I want to get the Drug in Code Geass...
It can just let you live in the past to escape from the present,
Even though it meant not being able to move for 15+ Years...
Just going back to the past,
It would have been a dream for me.
The past year...
Was pretty much the best time i had.
I never regret last year.
But this year this one problem...
I was reading my MSN past History,
I had so much fun than... and now...
I just want to disappear,
If other people can get happy,
I dun mind being alone...
I only have one main wish right now.
MingZhe knows,
And he might now be in the best position to settle it.
So my hopes rest on him now...